Anxious Thoughts

So today I was with my mom browsing a local art store and came across a art/poster section for 50% off. Being that we are both fans of art, we Decide to look take a look. I came across this poster: I thought it was inspiring and felt the need to share. When anxiety rears its ugly head, no matter how tough it may seem, keep calm and carry on!

Enjoy! "I will! I am! I can! I will actualize my dream. I will press ahead. I will settle down and see through it. I will solve..."  "Fear is an affirmation of your growth because it proves that you are risking" "Happiness is the absence of the striving for happiness" (so just be happy, life is beautiful!)

A little late but better late than never! "Don't make up problems you don't have yet. Its not a problem until its a   real   problem. Most things you worry about never happen anyway"   "A great many worries can be diminished by realizing the unimportance of the matter which is causing anxiety." "Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood."

Just a quick Update, I changed the look a little bit to accommodate the winter/holiday season. I've also added a links section on the right column. Those are links to websites I've come across relating to anxiety and panic that offer some great advice. I will post new sites whenever I come across some that I like. Oh And I'm now on twitter, I've added a feed to the right. PS. If you look above I've also added some animated fish just for fun!

Ok so where was I.....Alright so my Thanksgiving mini-vacation was pretty good. On The day before Thanksgiving my Supervisor let us all leave early by about 3 hours, which was excellent! I left work and grabbed some lunch with my friends before heading home to take a nice rest for the Thanksgiving festivities (Prior to this I was barley getting 7-8 hours of sleep, working 6 days a week). Thanksgiving day was pretty quite for the most part and we actually had dinner early since some of my family had to actually work that night, sucks to work in retail sometimes, so we actually had dinner around 1 or 2PM and then proceeded to just hang out and chit chat until about 5PM. Thanksgiving night a few friends and I decided that we wanted to go black Friday shopping, none of us had gone in the prior years. Many of the store were actually opening 10PM or Midnight on Thursday which was great, we had only planned to visit Walmart since they are open 24/7 we figured it couldn't be that bad. We...

Hey all, I started a thanksgiving post on Thanksgiving and meant to finish but got caught up with the mini-vacation and the weekend festivities. Theres much to talk about so I'm going to get right into it! Since my last post I've actually been working full time, I picked up a small contract with the company I worked for this past summer, funny how things work out. Things have been going quite well there although I'm up pretty early and its a job that requires me to be on my feet almost all day. Nothing too bad for the most part, its still a job and there are days where I just want to stay in my bed and sleep! I wasn't expecting to stay permanently on but there are some full time positions opening up that I'm going to apply for, hopefully things work out and I can stay or they at least extend my contract for a few more months. So in my last post I touched briefly on Depersonalization. I still feel a little depersonalized from time to time and they best way I fo...

Depersonalization, What is it? From a medical standpoint, Depersonalization (or depersonalisation ) is an anomaly of the mechanism by which an individual has self-awareness. It is a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation.Sufferers feel they have changed, and the world has become less real, vague, dreamlike, or lacking in significance. Thats quite a harsh definition in my own opinion. In my own words, Depersonalization is a feeling (just a FEELING ) of things not looking/seeming the same. Now I don't want to get into things not seeming real because I know that they are real, to me they just seem different in a way thats hard to explain. Obviously once you think they seem different then you trigger your mind to start wandering which will start triggering some anxiety. But I can think back to even before I started having anxiety that at times I'd say things seem to look a little different which prompted me to do a little more digging. I c...

Although things have been going pretty well, there are always OFF days where you don't feel like your normal self and in turn initiate anxious/uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, worries, ect. I had an anxiety attack randomly one day out of the blue, which caught me completely off guard. My day was going ok, nothing out of the ordinary when all of a sudden I get this rush that fills my mind with thoughts and instant anxiety. I was at work at the time and I simply stepped away from my desk and went for outside for a few minutes of air. Once I got over the initial anxiety I was just left with an uncomfortable feeling all day. I lost my appetite at lunch time but still ate something so I wouldn't start feeling worse from lack of food. At lunch I was able to call my mom and speak to her to help ease my mind. Got through the rest of the day without an issue. Ever since then, this happed quite a few weeks ago, I've been having up and down days. Some days I feel alright but some d...

Hello all, I'm back and yes its been quite some time. I do apologize for the lack of updates! My last update I had just began a new job and came back from an amazing trip to Northern California. Since then I've been exploring the beautiful South West and having a great time doing so! My friends out here are pretty cool and we all enjoy the same sort of things. Not sure If I mentioned this but I picked up some after work activities, whether is just going for a walk/bike ride, working on my car, swimming, or simply hanging out with my friends. I find when I keep myself busy I think less about anxiety and more about living my life. I haven't had a really bad attack in quite a while (trying to stay strong), and I am glad. This morning was a little tough. I'm taking a small 4 day vacation to Southern California to enjoy the whether and attend a local car show (my car is still not fixed, more on that another time) with my friends. I've been excited for this all week b...

Still here! And I Promise another update is coming tomorrow or Friday for the latest!

its been quite a while, has it not? lots of stories to tell but let's recap a bit. I last left off where I had recently moved to a new state and honestly felt quite a bit lonely although I had my family around me, having friends and going out once in a while is good for you (I feel so anyway). So since my last posts I've been able to control a good majority of the anxiety/panic attacks and avoid them as best as possible. My real challenge has been with all these WEIRD thoughts that comes with the anxiety. These thoughts make you doubt yourself, worry about life, make you feel like your losing hope, and many more. I think of myself as an over-thinker because I always OVER think a situation and fill my head with negative thoughts for no reason at all because almost all of the time the outcome is fine. Of course there will be stressful times in your life but we have to learn how to combat stress in a positive way. Stress may feel worse with anxiety (for me it gets pretty bad) an...

That's probally something many of us with anxiety think about.....are we crazy? But the answer is no and I found a great article on why. http://www.anxietyguru.net/why-anxiety-disorder-does-not-mean-youre-crazy/ That clarify's things for me, hopefully it will do the same for you.

Hey all, Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with the entire move and getting the house ready so my family and I are able to move in within the next few months. My anxiety has been normal, haven't had any really bad panic attacks. The Obsessive thoughts have since calmed down after I read a few great articles online and seeking some advice on AnxietyZone. My biggest obstacle has been learning to live with it rather than trying to get rid of it since its something that doesn't just go away. The type of person I am is one that likes to take the "easy way" or shortcut my way to the finish line. Having anxiety is teaching me that not everything comes easy in life and some things take time. Learn to live and let go.

Get used to it. Start everyday as if it were on purpose and don't worry about tomorrow, you'll get to it tomorrow.

Had to take a minute out of my homework to address something (Who doesn't want to get away from homework lol). Over the past with my anxiety I've had these thoughts that come and go however there are a few thoughts that have been a little louder than unusual during I'd say the last week or so. I've been having these weird thoughts that I might go crazy and hurt my family or someone and honestly It scares the sh*t out of me . I haven't said anything for fear that people might think that I'm a mental case and I'd end up in an institution or something along those lines. Today I just felt a little crappy when I got home and decided to go anxiety googling....its a good/bad thing. BAD because It brought on that anxiety/panic fight or flight stuff where I just had all these thoughts running through my head and I felt like I needed to get up and run. GOOD because I learned that these thoughts are symptoms of OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I also learned t...

Sorry for the lack of updates I've been swamped with the big move out west but happy to say that I've finally made the big jump. I've been here about two weeks now, moved the third week of February so I've been here roughly almost three weeks...how time flies! I've been enjoying the move, I get a little home sick sometimes but glad that the rest of my family is here for support. I am a strong believe that home is wherever your family is, even though most of my close friends are still on the east coast its good to know that they are only a phone call away. So lets talk about my anxiety since I've quite my job back in New Jersey (End of January) until I moved my anxiety has been non-existant. I had an excellent two and half weeks off and I felt great! I was able to spend some time with my grandmother which was great, stressful at time but overall a pleasant experience. I didn't have any serious anxiety/panic attacks or mind racing thoughts and was able to ju...

Well my last official day of work was on January 26th and since then I've been really enjoying my time off.  My anxiety attacks have been going pretty well, nothing I haven't been through before. There are days when I am great and there are days when I feel a little "blah". Learning to adjust to those crappy days has been a challenge but I'm making do. So, what have I been doing with my time off? Well the week I quit my parents were in town so I got to spend some time with them before they flew back to the west. Having them here was great as it got me out of the apartment I'm staying at for a bit to get away from everything here (living here is a bit stressful at times). Otherwise I've been just doing my school work, focusing on some solo project i've got going on, and looking for jobs out west. Yes I am still moving, this will be my last week on the east coast. I've been putting this move off for almost two weeks......why? Because I've been ...

As I continue my journey with anxiety, I feel strongly that much of my physical anxiety symptoms are controllable whilst my mental anxiety flares up at any given time. I can't put my finger on why at times I have such a negative state of mind that sends me into instant panic/worry. I've been slowly reading my Anxiety and Phobia workbook which helps put many different things into perspective. This negative state of mind is called Self talk. Its the "What If.." statements that help trigger the panic/anxious state of mind. The book is supposed to show you how to change this self talk and how to promote a better lifestyle. Changing my lifestyle around to help calm this state of mind will help me get through this, it just takes time.. I am glad I have the opportunity to move, despite not wanting to leave my friends behind because they help get my mind off things when I am feeling down. I am going to use this opportunity to start fresh and work towards further conquering ...

Decided to stop by Barnes and Nobles on my way home this afternoon to pickup an anxiety workbook. After reading through quite a few different book reviews online, I decided to go with The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook, Fifth Edition by Edmund J. Bourne. Many others with anxiety/panic and specific phobias have said this book has been extremely helpful, you may find many reviews on the fourth edition but the fifth edition was recently release which added two new chapters . Will report back on my progress as I go through the book. Goodnight

I almost forgot that today is Tuesday. Yesterday was a holiday, and I wrote the title of this post as "case of the anxiety Mondays.." then added the "On Tuesday" part once i realized it was actually Tuesday! Don't know if its because I'm stressed or what but I had a pretty bad anxiety attack this morning while driving to work. I've been having really bad stomach aches also when I get anxiety attacks that make me go to the bathroom. I get that nervous/butterfly feeling in my stomach and feels as if i have a lump in my throat. That feeling usually fades away after a while, but during that feeling I feel extremely confused. I hate the feeling and want it to go away because it makes me feel really uncomfortable which just sends my mind spinning. I've actually find myself worrying about my anxiety and if I should seek professional help. 9 out of 10 days I will be fine however on that one day when my anxiety decides to flare up, it just drains me com...

 forgot to mention that something I think "things look different" Started anxiety googling and found this great article. Anxiety Disorders and phobias

Not sure whats going on today but I'm off to a rough morning. This week has been a little stressful as I've been having some anxious thoughts and I started the week on the wrong foot. Sunday and Monday i didn't get enough sleep which was partially my fault and had me feeling a bit anxious on Tuesday... ok that's expected since its important to get the right amount of sleep daily! Tuesday night i made it a priority to get to bed early since i felt both physically and mentally exhausted. Got way more than I bargained for since we got hit with a storm and work ended up having a delayed opening. Had a pretty relaxed day on Tuesday nothing major. Wednesday comes and I'm feeling a little under the weather, like a mild cold. so after work I decide to go grab myself some cough drops and airborne. Get home and i drink that airborne, still felt a little crappy and I went about my business. About to go to sleep and I have a little anxiety but nothing crazy so I shrugged it o...

Happy Late New Year!!!! Better late than never. Hope you all enjoyed it.