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Off days

Although things have been going pretty well, there are always OFF days where you don't feel like your normal self and in turn initiate anxious/uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, worries, ect. I had an anxiety attack randomly one day out of the blue, which caught me completely off guard. My day was going ok, nothing out of the ordinary when all of a sudden I get this rush that fills my mind with thoughts and instant anxiety. I was at work at the time and I simply stepped away from my desk and went for outside for a few minutes of air. Once I got over the initial anxiety I was just left with an uncomfortable feeling all day. I lost my appetite at lunch time but still ate something so I wouldn't start feeling worse from lack of food. At lunch I was able to call my mom and speak to her to help ease my mind. Got through the rest of the day without an issue.

Ever since then, this happed quite a few weeks ago, I've been having up and down days. Some days I feel alright but some days are filled with anxious thoughts. For some reason I can't seem to shake them, even when I've had a good few days I always find myself reverting backwards to the same anxiety. I guess I've had/have alot going on in my life. I worry about my anxiety and If I'm ok, worry about my health at times, worry about my job situation (currently I am working but only an Internship where I do not get paid) and the mountain of bills that I have to attend to monthly.

At the end of the day I know I WILL BE ALRIGHT, Its just anxiety but it sure is scary. I've been doing my best NOT to look online about anxiety or browse different anxiety forums simply because I just want to live my life and not look at the like a burden. I am living with anxiety and I am working on getting better at powering through the anxious thoughts. I've come pretty far and can control my anxiety attacks quite well but the anxious/racing thoughts still need some attending to.

I never finished my Anxiety workbook because I thought I was on a better track and didn't want to touch on the topic of anything anixety related but I realized I cannot be afraid to learn more about it in order to eventually overcome it.
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