Anxious Thoughts

Hey all, I started a thanksgiving post on Thanksgiving and meant to finish but got caught up with the mini-vacation and the weekend festivities. Theres much to talk about so I'm going to get right into it! Since my last post I've actually been working full time, I picked up a small contract with the company I worked for this past summer, funny how things work out. Things have been going quite well there although I'm up pretty early and its a job that requires me to be on my feet almost all day. Nothing too bad for the most part, its still a job and there are days where I just want to stay in my bed and sleep! I wasn't expecting to stay permanently on but there are some full time positions opening up that I'm going to apply for, hopefully things work out and I can stay or they at least extend my contract for a few more months. So in my last post I touched briefly on Depersonalization. I still feel a little depersonalized from time to time and they best way I fo...

Although things have been going pretty well, there are always OFF days where you don't feel like your normal self and in turn initiate anxious/uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, worries, ect. I had an anxiety attack randomly one day out of the blue, which caught me completely off guard. My day was going ok, nothing out of the ordinary when all of a sudden I get this rush that fills my mind with thoughts and instant anxiety. I was at work at the time and I simply stepped away from my desk and went for outside for a few minutes of air. Once I got over the initial anxiety I was just left with an uncomfortable feeling all day. I lost my appetite at lunch time but still ate something so I wouldn't start feeling worse from lack of food. At lunch I was able to call my mom and speak to her to help ease my mind. Got through the rest of the day without an issue. Ever since then, this happed quite a few weeks ago, I've been having up and down days. Some days I feel alright but some d...

So I've finally began exercising, Its not much but its a start! We've got an exercise bike in our small home-gym area that my parents use mostly. So during my downtime or even if i'm feeling anxious I go sit on the bike and ride for exactly 15 minutes while reading a book/magazine. Today was my third day and I'm already challenging myself. Normally i ride at a steady pace and 15 minutes is enough for me to ride about 4.5 miles, the last 4 minutes I increase the resistance and the last minute i lower the resistance back down and just give it my all. The last two days I've been trying to beat my 4.5 time and today I finally did it, I came close to riding 5.5 Miles in 15 minutes and let me tell you that got my heart pumping, but in a good way! I felt great afterward and usually give myself a 3-5 minute warm-down. I read somewhere that some people feel anxious when they start to exercise since it gets their heart beating faster but that's normal. After i had my fi...