Decided to write something about an experience I had this past Saturday.
I had a pretty easy Friday at work, it was pretty quite. Friday night I spent at home relaxing, went out to grab some food with a few buddies around 10PM and came back home to hit the bed. Woke up around 9:30AM (Overslept a bit) and did my normal morning routine. Had to visit a client and install some software at around 11:30 so I prepped for that and left my house. Got to the clients location everything went smooth, finished up there around 12:15P and left as I had another job lined up and their location was closing at 1. I must have drove about 5 miles or so and came to a stoplight with light traffic and the light was red.
As I'm listening to music and enjoying the scenery all of a sudden I start feeling "weird" and think to myself "this doesn't feel normal" but I realized what was going on. There it was anxiety popping its ugly head up again and I start thinking about what just happened. It's always a mystery as to why and how anxiety just pops up out of nowhere, regardless of whether I'm having a good day or bad day. It can sometimes catch you off guard and send your day spiraling.
My initial thoughts were to calm down and just get my ass home and lay down. I had strongly considered going home but remembered that I had some work to do, It didn't necessarily need to get done but I was close enough to the job location to get it done and save myself a trip come Monday. So i begin driving to the next job location. On my drive there i still felt a bit uneasy but I thought to myself, why should I let anxiety rule my life? What's running home going to do, I can't escape my own mind! I need to deal with this. So i Kept it moving to where i needed to go, got my work done and went about the rest of my day. Going to work was actually relieving because it got my mind off what happened and I was able to focus on other things. Plus I earned myself some free time this week as well as overtime pay.
Point of the story is to keep it moving. As hard as anxiety may be when it hits you, don't let it knock you off your feet or stop you from doing whatever it is you were doing. Don't let it take control of your life, don't let the fear/worry/panic control you. I know it can be really tough, if you need a few minutes to collect yourself, by all means step aside/outside and get some air. Then get back to doing whatever you were doing!
Do i still worry? Think I'm going crazy? think nobody understands? feel like i can't control my anxiety? feel lost? worry about the life and my future? YES! But do I let that control me? heck no. I live my life one day at a time and figure out things as i get there.
thoughts are just that. THOUGHTS
keep it moving.
I had a pretty easy Friday at work, it was pretty quite. Friday night I spent at home relaxing, went out to grab some food with a few buddies around 10PM and came back home to hit the bed. Woke up around 9:30AM (Overslept a bit) and did my normal morning routine. Had to visit a client and install some software at around 11:30 so I prepped for that and left my house. Got to the clients location everything went smooth, finished up there around 12:15P and left as I had another job lined up and their location was closing at 1. I must have drove about 5 miles or so and came to a stoplight with light traffic and the light was red.
As I'm listening to music and enjoying the scenery all of a sudden I start feeling "weird" and think to myself "this doesn't feel normal" but I realized what was going on. There it was anxiety popping its ugly head up again and I start thinking about what just happened. It's always a mystery as to why and how anxiety just pops up out of nowhere, regardless of whether I'm having a good day or bad day. It can sometimes catch you off guard and send your day spiraling.
My initial thoughts were to calm down and just get my ass home and lay down. I had strongly considered going home but remembered that I had some work to do, It didn't necessarily need to get done but I was close enough to the job location to get it done and save myself a trip come Monday. So i begin driving to the next job location. On my drive there i still felt a bit uneasy but I thought to myself, why should I let anxiety rule my life? What's running home going to do, I can't escape my own mind! I need to deal with this. So i Kept it moving to where i needed to go, got my work done and went about the rest of my day. Going to work was actually relieving because it got my mind off what happened and I was able to focus on other things. Plus I earned myself some free time this week as well as overtime pay.
Point of the story is to keep it moving. As hard as anxiety may be when it hits you, don't let it knock you off your feet or stop you from doing whatever it is you were doing. Don't let it take control of your life, don't let the fear/worry/panic control you. I know it can be really tough, if you need a few minutes to collect yourself, by all means step aside/outside and get some air. Then get back to doing whatever you were doing!
Do i still worry? Think I'm going crazy? think nobody understands? feel like i can't control my anxiety? feel lost? worry about the life and my future? YES! But do I let that control me? heck no. I live my life one day at a time and figure out things as i get there.
thoughts are just that. THOUGHTS
keep it moving.
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