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Pre-Birthday Anxiety

Not sure what was on my mind today but I had another small anxiety episode. Woke up this morning fine and took care of some errands. I returned home later in the afternoon and ate. As i hopped in front of the TV to watch a movie i felt a little "off" and well the rest was history.

Thoughts obviously started to race through my mind and I felt anxious, why? I'm not sure. I felt as if I had to get up and go do something or go somewhere. But did i follow through with that thought? NOPE, I remained as calm as possible despite my mind racing and my stomach feeling like someone just punched me. I relaxed myself as best as possible and tried to take control of the situation. Eventually I ended up spending some time chatting with my Grandmother who has always been there for me regardless. And let me just say what a relief it is to talk about your anxiety, it was like instant relaxation. In the past I've talked about it and felt better but today It was great, I've been trying to cope with this on my own and I've been doing a great job but sometimes you just need to talk to someone.

We got onto the topic of subconscious thoughts and how they affect you. Consciously I may not have alot going on but in reality there are tons of things I deal with that cause me stress because I'm constantly dealing with them..

Anyway I've got a good write-up that I'm working on that will be posted up tomorrow in celebration of my birthday!

Tonight I'm going to hang with a few friends to get my mind off things and celebrate another year of life. As I get older I see myself becoming more mature and today I looked back on how I was many years ago and I'm glad things happened the way they did because they made me who I am Today.

Happy Early Birthday.

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