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Past weekend

As I try to figure out what to write, I'm trying to remember what I did this past Friday night since I last posted on my blog. I cannot remember, does anxiety make you forgetful? Sometimes I feel a little clumsy/forgetful. Anyway Saturday I spent hanging out with an old friend. We had a pretty good time catching up and remembering old memories, headed home to get some much needed sleep.

Sunday stayed home mostly all day, bumming around the house. Went to a friends house to catch the Colts vs Giants game........wow, the giants were bad. I left at half-time because I couldn't take it anymore and I'm not even a big giants fan!! Monday I was supposed to work but my boss told me not to come in since It was already late and I was stuck at home waiting for the rental car company to pick me up, so I enjoyed a day off and got a chance to start on a new book. Currently I'm reading a book called "Rework" by a company called 37Signals, pretty good book so far. The book gives you advice on business/entrepreneurship, Its been given some pretty good reviews and I really enjoy business related books.

We decided to go to dinner afterward. At dinner I felt a little anxious, probably due to the fact that I was tired and exerted most of my energy golfing. But I did my best to get past it and did, finished my food and went home to bed.

Forgot to mention my doctor visit on Saturday morning. The doctor said I'm a little underweight for my height, but due to my extremely fast metabolism, its hard for me to gain weight. So she put me on a new diet where I have to eat 4-6 meals a day, and it sucks. The first and last meal have to be heavy and the meals in between can be light but I also have to have snacks as well, not just meals. So far I've been doing good but sometimes I feel so full! We'll see how this goes....

I'm still wearing my heart monitor by the way, another 2 1/2 weeks to go.

Till next time

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