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September 11th 2010

Today was a pretty relaxing saturday. I did have plans to wake up and go walking/running however I came in pretty late this morning and slept in till about 9AM. Woke up in a good mood and had some errands to take care of. Got back in around Lunch time and a Friend and I decided to go play a few rounds of golf. Spent about an hour out there before it just got too damn hot but i had a pretty good workout. I'm sure I'll feel it in the morning even though I stretched prior to going out.

Got back home took care of a few errands and ended up taking a much needed nap. I've got a charity even to attend early tomorrow morning so I went out and cleaned the car to prep her for tomorrow. I've been feeling better but i'm always trying to keep myself busy. Sometimes I feel scared about getting another anxiety attack so I keep my mind going and focusing on more important things. I picked up new book and magazine earlier today so tonight I might stay in and read for a while or might head out to hang with some friends just to get out of the house.

I know I said I would touch on the thinking topic but I'm going to save that for later this week. My condolences go out to those who had family/friends that were lost on 9/11.

I remember it like it was yesterday. I was sitting in the computer lab at school when i get called up to the office. My parents decided to come pick me up but they weren't able to say anything to me because nobody at school really knew what had happened besides the principal. At the time I was glad I left school but couldn't figure out why my parents decided to come get me. Once I realized what was going on I was shocked. We could see the smoke on the way home from school and when we got home we could see it clearly since we had a perfect view of the city from the end of my street. Something I will never forget...

Will get some time tomorrow to post an entry. Should be home from the charity even later in the evening and I'm going to catch up with some of my favority TV shows.

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