Had to take a minute out of my homework to address something (Who doesn't want to get away from homework lol).
Over the past with my anxiety I've had these thoughts that come and go however there are a few thoughts that have been a little louder than unusual during I'd say the last week or so. I've been having these weird thoughts that I might go crazy and hurt my family or someone and honestly It scares the sh*t out of me. I haven't said anything for fear that people might think that I'm a mental case and I'd end up in an institution or something along those lines. Today I just felt a little crappy when I got home and decided to go anxiety googling....its a good/bad thing. BAD because It brought on that anxiety/panic fight or flight stuff where I just had all these thoughts running through my head and I felt like I needed to get up and run. GOOD because I learned that these thoughts are symptoms of OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I also learned that I am not alone, quite a few threads on this over at AnxietyZone, follow the link here
When I think of OCD normally I think of people who have to do something 15-20 times before they can move on. They perform what they call "rituals" in order to get on with their day and if they miss any of these days it brings about a day of hell with anxiety/panic/worry. But OCD can also be Unwanted thoughts as well.... thoughts that you frequently think about yet have a hard time controlling them.
My thoughts include going crazy, ending up in a mental asylum, hurting someone, blacking out, loosing my memory, ect. Believe me that IF YOU ARE HAVING ANY OF THESE THOUGHTS YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Please do a little research on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
This is new to me and honestly its just as scary as anxiety and triggers anxiety/panic. As I learn about this I post my findings on how to fight these unwanted thoughts. I've decided that Its time maybe I start going to a local support group in order to start talking more about my anxiety. I keep alot of this stuff bottled up when I am not blogging about it and I want to talk to people who've been in the same struggles I am going through.
Going to try and open up to my mother about what's going on in my mind. Getting it out helps regardless if its blogging or confining in someone. The reason I began blogging is to share my struggles...it really helps when I am feeling down.
Over the past with my anxiety I've had these thoughts that come and go however there are a few thoughts that have been a little louder than unusual during I'd say the last week or so. I've been having these weird thoughts that I might go crazy and hurt my family or someone and honestly It scares the sh*t out of me. I haven't said anything for fear that people might think that I'm a mental case and I'd end up in an institution or something along those lines. Today I just felt a little crappy when I got home and decided to go anxiety googling....its a good/bad thing. BAD because It brought on that anxiety/panic fight or flight stuff where I just had all these thoughts running through my head and I felt like I needed to get up and run. GOOD because I learned that these thoughts are symptoms of OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I also learned that I am not alone, quite a few threads on this over at AnxietyZone, follow the link here
When I think of OCD normally I think of people who have to do something 15-20 times before they can move on. They perform what they call "rituals" in order to get on with their day and if they miss any of these days it brings about a day of hell with anxiety/panic/worry. But OCD can also be Unwanted thoughts as well.... thoughts that you frequently think about yet have a hard time controlling them.
My thoughts include going crazy, ending up in a mental asylum, hurting someone, blacking out, loosing my memory, ect. Believe me that IF YOU ARE HAVING ANY OF THESE THOUGHTS YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Please do a little research on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
This is new to me and honestly its just as scary as anxiety and triggers anxiety/panic. As I learn about this I post my findings on how to fight these unwanted thoughts. I've decided that Its time maybe I start going to a local support group in order to start talking more about my anxiety. I keep alot of this stuff bottled up when I am not blogging about it and I want to talk to people who've been in the same struggles I am going through.
Going to try and open up to my mother about what's going on in my mind. Getting it out helps regardless if its blogging or confining in someone. The reason I began blogging is to share my struggles...it really helps when I am feeling down.
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