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Mini-Vacation

Well my last official day of work was on January 26th and since then I've been really enjoying my time off.  My anxiety attacks have been going pretty well, nothing I haven't been through before. There are days when I am great and there are days when I feel a little "blah". Learning to adjust to those crappy days has been a challenge but I'm making do.

So, what have I been doing with my time off? Well the week I quit my parents were in town so I got to spend some time with them before they flew back to the west. Having them here was great as it got me out of the apartment I'm staying at for a bit to get away from everything here (living here is a bit stressful at times). Otherwise I've been just doing my school work, focusing on some solo project i've got going on, and looking for jobs out west. Yes I am still moving, this will be my last week on the east coast. I've been putting this move off for almost two weeks......why? Because I've been waiting to drive across but this snowy weather have proven difficult. Getting stuck in a snow storm is no fun, trust me. I got stuck a few weeks ago and it was HORRIBLE. A Normal 1.5 Hour drive took me almost 4 hours I kid you not and when I got home there was no parking. Eventually i dug myself a spot and went to bed.

I've been reading my anxiety workbook slowly but surly. From what I read so far the book is really good and whatever I've ever experienced with my anxiety is in that book so far. They explain to you that this is not a simple fix but rather a well though out strategy that you must apply to your life and beliefs in order to rid yourself of anxiety and help control it when it does appear.

This week I began practicing yoga and let me tell you its tough! The first day after my body was extremely sore which made me realize how lazy I've been over the years, big reality check. Since I am unable to access my bike or go for a jog outside I figure I'd begin practicing yoga which has been great. The only downside is I have very little time to practice in this apartment and I need an instructional DVD to follow along with until I get into the groove of things. There is a good AM and PM DVD that suggests practicing yoga twice a day for 20 minutes, once in the morning before work and once after work. Yoga has been proven to help with many things such as stress, body aches, and even anxiety. I will keep you posted on how that goes.

Will be posting from the West once I settle down with my move early next week.

Peace and Love.

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