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Finally Made The Big Move

Sorry for the lack of updates I've been swamped with the big move out west but happy to say that I've finally made the big jump. I've been here about two weeks now, moved the third week of February so I've been here roughly almost three weeks...how time flies! I've been enjoying the move, I get a little home sick sometimes but glad that the rest of my family is here for support. I am a strong believe that home is wherever your family is, even though most of my close friends are still on the east coast its good to know that they are only a phone call away.

So lets talk about my anxiety since I've quite my job back in New Jersey (End of January) until I moved my anxiety has been non-existant. I had an excellent two and half weeks off and I felt great! I was able to spend some time with my grandmother which was great, stressful at time but overall a pleasant experience. I didn't have any serious anxiety/panic attacks or mind racing thoughts and was able to just relax and enjoy my time off. I was a little nervous flying out here as it was the first time I'd be flying alone but the flight was quite smooth, I slept about four out of the five hours of the flight since I got about an hour and a half of sleep the night before (Thank my friend who decided it was a good idea to spend my last night talking and reminiscing last night... It turned out great as I spent some time with a good friend and I slept like a baby on the flight).

Getting out here I was greeted it to warm weather in a snow-free climate. There's also a time different of two hours behind east coast time but that was quite easy making the adjustment. Last Thursday I had a job interview and felt a bit uneasy before which brought on mind racing thoughts for about 15-20 minutes or so before the interview. I drank some Chamomile tea before my hour long drive and on the drive I was able to calm down before the interview. Even though I was able to get past that anxiety, the thought still lingers in my mind. This is normal as I've experienced this before in the past and I need to focus my energy on something else. I personally believe its the fear that keeps the thoughts on your mind for a few days after an attack because nobody likes that uncomfortable/uneasy feeling while a million thoughts race through your mind.

This morning I woke up feeling a bit uneasy so I decided to take this time and update my blog since writing about this helps document my progress while taking my mind off things. I am going to keep myself busy for the rest of the day by catching up on some homework, reading after that, and possibly going for a walk or a drive so I don't feel trapped in the house.

I will give you an update on the anxiety workbook in my next blog post.

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  1. congratulations on the big move. that's a huge accomplishment! definitely NORMAL to feel anxious with such a big change. glad to see you're handling it well.

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