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Depersonalization, What is it?

From a medical standpoint, Depersonalization (or depersonalisation) is an anomaly of the mechanism by which an individual has self-awareness. It is a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation.Sufferers feel they have changed, and the world has become less real, vague, dreamlike, or lacking in significance.

Thats quite a harsh definition in my own opinion.

In my own words, Depersonalization is a feeling (just a FEELING) of things not looking/seeming the same. Now I don't want to get into things not seeming real because I know that they are real, to me they just seem different in a way thats hard to explain. Obviously once you think they seem different then you trigger your mind to start wandering which will start triggering some anxiety. But I can think back to even before I started having anxiety that at times I'd say things seem to look a little different which prompted me to do a little more digging. I can remember a few years ago I went to the eye doctor to get an eye test because I thought things just seem "different". The eye doctor found nothing wrong and my vision was 20/20, he also looks behind the eyes and found nothing.

As far as I can remember I've had allergy issue but could never find out what causes my allergies. I've done tests but I'm not allergic to anything that they can find (pollen, grass, ect.) BUT I've always had nasal issues. I went to a doctor a few years ago who told me that there was something wrong with my nose shape internally and thats why I am only able to breathe out of one nostril. In short I don't get as much oxygen as someone else but its nothing harmful and could be corrected with surgery if it started to bother me that much. It was never something that bothered me and quite a large percentage of the world's population only breathes out of one nostril. Another thing to note is that I always have a post nasal drip, whether I'm sick or not. Judging from my mucus, It seems that my sinuses may be infected.

So I Did a bit of research of Depersonalization, anxiety googling as i like to call it, and depersonalization feelings can be triggered by breathing patterns and or in some cases sinus infection. Sinus infection deal with your ENT (Ear, Nose, Throat which are all connected).

NOT SAYING THAT THIS MAY BE THE CAUSE FOR YOU, but In my case I've decided to go get it checked out by an ENT doctor.

At the end of the day know that depersonalization is not harmful and does not mean that you are crazy or something is wrong with you.


I've been having this depersonalization feeling on and off for a few weeks now. Going to the ENT doctor this week hopefully to get my sinuses checked out!

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