Anxious Thoughts

This Is an Old Post from about 2 years ago that I forgot to publish, I will follow up on my experiences with professional help. Well I've decided it was time I consult a professional to seek help. I've been going back and forth with the idea for some time now but finally realized it was time. After much research I finally settled on 2-3 different psychologists. I also obtain a list of recommended psychologists through my medical insurance. Did a little homework on psychologists I liked and settled on one. I was actually a bit nervous going in but knew it was something I needed to do. The initial consultation is just a meet and greet to see if I will be a match, am comfortable, and they are able to help me. I'm glad to repot that I am very comfortable with her and she strongly believes that she can help without medication. I am strongly against taking medication unless absolutely necessary (ie. cannot function on a normal day and begins affecting your job). My psychologi...

Where did the time go?! Im officially back and ready to get to work! I went through and re-read many of my old posts tonight and can't believe how far I've come. Even if nobody ever reads this, it leaves me with a great journal! I will be posting a full update tomorrow, I cannot write much more on this tablet! Goodnight.

Blah. My anxiety has been running rampant this past week and I cannot seem to figure out why. It could be because I have a vacation coming up, possibly nervous about traveling? I've never been to Mexico, where I'm traveling to, but don't think I my mind should be racing. And whats even more puzzling is the thoughts in my mind aren't even related to my trip! I've been thinking about my life, my career path, Am I crazy, Is everything ok.....the normal stuff. What is my mind trying to tell me that needs some adjustment? We've got some lay-offs happening at work which only started this week which can add to it but I've accepted the fact that if I were to get laid off I'd be alright with that, its honestly out of my control! The worst part about not having a job if it were to happen is staying home. Work for me is a get out of the house and interact activity, I get to work with different people on a daily basis and its something I truly enjoy. We've b...

Oh how time flies! Where have I Been? Whats been going on? How are things going? Let's start with where I've been: This summer was actually pretty relaxing for me. I didn't do too many exciting thing, a spontaneous trip or two here and there, which was good. This was my first summer working full time at my new job so I really didn't have much vacation time! Had a few trips up to Las Vegas which was great, tried my luck this time at an actual cards table which was good.....didn't win but didn't lose! And to wrap up summer I took a trip to SoCal with a girl who was a friend but we ended up briefly dating and that didn't end well. Didn't really get to spend much time at the Lake's here in Arizona like I did last summer but there's always next year! This was my first REAL Arizona summer and let me tell you it was HOT. Last year was a joke compared to this year. But its coming to an end now and we've got a solid 6-8 months of awesome weather rig...

I've come to terms with the fact that I am a HUGE procrastinator! I've been meaning to post updates months ago and kept telling myself I will do it, I will do it, but never did it! OK so I left off with me talking one of my notorious mini vacations up to the snowy California mountains. Let me tell you that was quite a trip and California is always a good time with great friends, I was bummed I had to leave on Sunday night while everyone left on Monday. After I got back things at my job were going great. As you know I've been working as a consultant since November and enjoy what I do. A good friend of mine at work informed me that he was interviewing for another internal position, but I didn't think much of it at the time. Come to find out a few weeks later that he actually got the position was transferring. You're asking why this is important? I was bumped up to a full-time employee (hooray)!!! I've been in this new state a little over a year and work has been...

Hey everyone, Sorry about my absence around here lately. I've been extremely swamped at work with project after project and long days. I'm excited to announce that I will be going on a Mini Vacation this weekend. Taking a day or two off work and heading up to the mountains with some friends to snowboard and just generally relax! Hopefully I will get some time to blog a bit more. Quotes coming up tonight, stay tuned.

So there's a question that has been in my head for the last few days that I wanted to share with everyone. Should you read about anxiety (treatments, symptoms, ect.) even when you've found your own way to manage it on a daily basis? The reason I ask is because personally I've found ways to deal with my own anxiety on a daily basis when it rears it's ugly head. Some days are worse than other but I manage to get through my day. But I sometimes wonder should I be doing more? I'd love to read more about anxiety but there are times when reading about it will trigger an attack which we all know isn't pleasant. Drop your comments below to weigh in on the subject, I will be posting this question on a few message boards to get some feedback. Stay tuned!

Last weekend was Christmas and I was already overwhelmed with getting everything together for the holidays. It slipped my mind to post my quotes so this week I figured I'd give you guys a few extra quotes that I gathered, enjoy. "There is no medicine like hope, no incentive so great, and no tonic so powerful as expectation of something tomorrow." "People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness hat plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within." "I must not fear. Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that bring total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." "Put your heart, mind, intellect, and soul eve...

So today I was with my mom browsing a local art store and came across a art/poster section for 50% off. Being that we are both fans of art, we Decide to look take a look. I came across this poster: I thought it was inspiring and felt the need to share. When anxiety rears its ugly head, no matter how tough it may seem, keep calm and carry on!

Enjoy! "I will! I am! I can! I will actualize my dream. I will press ahead. I will settle down and see through it. I will solve..."  "Fear is an affirmation of your growth because it proves that you are risking" "Happiness is the absence of the striving for happiness" (so just be happy, life is beautiful!)

A little late but better late than never! "Don't make up problems you don't have yet. Its not a problem until its a   real   problem. Most things you worry about never happen anyway"   "A great many worries can be diminished by realizing the unimportance of the matter which is causing anxiety." "Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood."

Just a quick Update, I changed the look a little bit to accommodate the winter/holiday season. I've also added a links section on the right column. Those are links to websites I've come across relating to anxiety and panic that offer some great advice. I will post new sites whenever I come across some that I like. Oh And I'm now on twitter, I've added a feed to the right. PS. If you look above I've also added some animated fish just for fun!

Ok so where was I.....Alright so my Thanksgiving mini-vacation was pretty good. On The day before Thanksgiving my Supervisor let us all leave early by about 3 hours, which was excellent! I left work and grabbed some lunch with my friends before heading home to take a nice rest for the Thanksgiving festivities (Prior to this I was barley getting 7-8 hours of sleep, working 6 days a week). Thanksgiving day was pretty quite for the most part and we actually had dinner early since some of my family had to actually work that night, sucks to work in retail sometimes, so we actually had dinner around 1 or 2PM and then proceeded to just hang out and chit chat until about 5PM. Thanksgiving night a few friends and I decided that we wanted to go black Friday shopping, none of us had gone in the prior years. Many of the store were actually opening 10PM or Midnight on Thursday which was great, we had only planned to visit Walmart since they are open 24/7 we figured it couldn't be that bad. We...

Hey all, I started a thanksgiving post on Thanksgiving and meant to finish but got caught up with the mini-vacation and the weekend festivities. Theres much to talk about so I'm going to get right into it! Since my last post I've actually been working full time, I picked up a small contract with the company I worked for this past summer, funny how things work out. Things have been going quite well there although I'm up pretty early and its a job that requires me to be on my feet almost all day. Nothing too bad for the most part, its still a job and there are days where I just want to stay in my bed and sleep! I wasn't expecting to stay permanently on but there are some full time positions opening up that I'm going to apply for, hopefully things work out and I can stay or they at least extend my contract for a few more months. So in my last post I touched briefly on Depersonalization. I still feel a little depersonalized from time to time and they best way I fo...

Depersonalization, What is it? From a medical standpoint, Depersonalization (or depersonalisation ) is an anomaly of the mechanism by which an individual has self-awareness. It is a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation.Sufferers feel they have changed, and the world has become less real, vague, dreamlike, or lacking in significance. Thats quite a harsh definition in my own opinion. In my own words, Depersonalization is a feeling (just a FEELING ) of things not looking/seeming the same. Now I don't want to get into things not seeming real because I know that they are real, to me they just seem different in a way thats hard to explain. Obviously once you think they seem different then you trigger your mind to start wandering which will start triggering some anxiety. But I can think back to even before I started having anxiety that at times I'd say things seem to look a little different which prompted me to do a little more digging. I c...

Although things have been going pretty well, there are always OFF days where you don't feel like your normal self and in turn initiate anxious/uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, worries, ect. I had an anxiety attack randomly one day out of the blue, which caught me completely off guard. My day was going ok, nothing out of the ordinary when all of a sudden I get this rush that fills my mind with thoughts and instant anxiety. I was at work at the time and I simply stepped away from my desk and went for outside for a few minutes of air. Once I got over the initial anxiety I was just left with an uncomfortable feeling all day. I lost my appetite at lunch time but still ate something so I wouldn't start feeling worse from lack of food. At lunch I was able to call my mom and speak to her to help ease my mind. Got through the rest of the day without an issue. Ever since then, this happed quite a few weeks ago, I've been having up and down days. Some days I feel alright but some d...

Hello all, I'm back and yes its been quite some time. I do apologize for the lack of updates! My last update I had just began a new job and came back from an amazing trip to Northern California. Since then I've been exploring the beautiful South West and having a great time doing so! My friends out here are pretty cool and we all enjoy the same sort of things. Not sure If I mentioned this but I picked up some after work activities, whether is just going for a walk/bike ride, working on my car, swimming, or simply hanging out with my friends. I find when I keep myself busy I think less about anxiety and more about living my life. I haven't had a really bad attack in quite a while (trying to stay strong), and I am glad. This morning was a little tough. I'm taking a small 4 day vacation to Southern California to enjoy the whether and attend a local car show (my car is still not fixed, more on that another time) with my friends. I've been excited for this all week b...

Still here! And I Promise another update is coming tomorrow or Friday for the latest!

its been quite a while, has it not? lots of stories to tell but let's recap a bit. I last left off where I had recently moved to a new state and honestly felt quite a bit lonely although I had my family around me, having friends and going out once in a while is good for you (I feel so anyway). So since my last posts I've been able to control a good majority of the anxiety/panic attacks and avoid them as best as possible. My real challenge has been with all these WEIRD thoughts that comes with the anxiety. These thoughts make you doubt yourself, worry about life, make you feel like your losing hope, and many more. I think of myself as an over-thinker because I always OVER think a situation and fill my head with negative thoughts for no reason at all because almost all of the time the outcome is fine. Of course there will be stressful times in your life but we have to learn how to combat stress in a positive way. Stress may feel worse with anxiety (for me it gets pretty bad) an...

That's probally something many of us with anxiety think about.....are we crazy? But the answer is no and I found a great article on why. http://www.anxietyguru.net/why-anxiety-disorder-does-not-mean-youre-crazy/ That clarify's things for me, hopefully it will do the same for you.