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Anxious Days lately

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My anxiety has been running rampant this past week and I cannot seem to figure out why. It could be because I have a vacation coming up, possibly nervous about traveling? I've never been to Mexico, where I'm traveling to, but don't think I my mind should be racing. And whats even more puzzling is the thoughts in my mind aren't even related to my trip!

I've been thinking about my life, my career path, Am I crazy, Is everything ok.....the normal stuff. What is my mind trying to tell me that needs some adjustment? We've got some lay-offs happening at work which only started this week which can add to it but I've accepted the fact that if I were to get laid off I'd be alright with that, its honestly out of my control! The worst part about not having a job if it were to happen is staying home. Work for me is a get out of the house and interact activity, I get to work with different people on a daily basis and its something I truly enjoy. We've been told that my department is safe, for now. I'm also eager to get my car running again, which hasn't been the smoothest journey thus far.

I want to say what triggered this is my neck issues. In my last post I mentioned that I started going to a Chiropractor for neck pain, slept bad a while ago and never got over it. While I've been getting better its quite a slow process as there is work (exercises and such) that needs to get done to re-align my posture and spine. I'm a huge health freak and get worried when it comes to my own health which isn't the greatest thing I know! Pair that with the meningitis outbreak I saw on the news, not connected as those have been linked with steroids for back pain which I've never taken, and you have a recipe for some anxiety I believe. Hopefully this vacation will get my mind off things.

I bought myself a little e-book reader and plan to take some good reading material with me for the flight and for those lazy beach days.

Just needed to vent a bit ....

If the room has wifi I will be sure to post next week!

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