Anxious Thoughts

Merry Christmas and happy holidays to all. Working on a few topics that I've been meaning to cover but I've been busy with my whole move/re-location. Stay tuned... Hope you all have an anxiety/panic free holiday!

Welcome back home! I had a wedding to attend a few weeks ago in Brazil and decided to take some time off for myself to see what another part of the world was like.. Let me first start off by saying that Brazil is an absolutely beautiful place. Despite high crime rates in the larger cities ( such as Rio De Janeiro or Sao Paulo), its simply amazing. The people are extremely friendly and warm which makes you feel right at home even if you don't speak Portuguese (which I don't). The lifestyle compared to here is much different in many aspects. To me Brazilian people are very laid back, friendly, and like to have a good time. They work but they don't stress themselves out about it and the job market is much like ours currently where jobs are hard to find. During my stay there people just had a general sense of "well-being" and take life one day at a time attitude. I felt really comfortable there and could see myself living there with no problems. Another trip is d...

Hello world, I've been doing good with my GAD, I've been meaning to post up and touch on a few different topic that I had floating around in my head however I didn't find the time to do so and now its like I have writers block. Feeling much better that when I had last posted due to me being a little shaken up from an anxiety attack I had. The best way I can describe it is like taking 3 steps forward and when an anxiety attack strikes you take 2 steps back and almost start over again. For me it feels like I'm in a defensive state just waiting for another anxiety attack to happen and just hoping that everything will be Ok. Truth is, you'll never know when its going to come and life goes on regardless. There are time throughout my week where I feel a little blue or feel like an anxiety attack is about to happen but I try to rid myself of those feelings even before they start and I've been doing good so far, and I'm glad for that. Will make an effort to po...

Haven't updated in quite a while huh? Yep, I've been trying to enjoy myself and enjoy life. Taking a break from writing about anxiety or even browsing the anxiety forums help keep my mind off of anxiety completely and focus on everything else in my surroundings. I think by constantly reading other peoples stories, researching GAD, ect ect. help keep it in your sub-conscious mind. Plus for those of us who are hypochondriacs it gives our anxiety some ammo for when it decides to pop up and wreak havoc. I've learned to accept my anxiety for what it is. My definition of anxiety is Fearful thoughts that lead to other negative emotions such as panic/worry and depression (both symptoms from which I've suffered with due to anxiety). In the beginning I used to get frustrated wondering when this is going to stop and when I would go back to my normal self. I now understand that this is who I am and this has happened for a reason. A reason which I am still searching...

Things have been getting better for the most part. Something that has been haunting me since this all started is "when is it going to end" and since my last blog post I've found that answer. Anxiety will be with me for the rest of my life and I am OK with that. How i deal with my anxiety ultimately will affect the outcome of the situation. There are good days and there are some days where I will have an anxious feeling from time to time. If I let that anxious feeling take control then things can take a turn for the worst and I can have a full-blown anxiety attack, which we all know is no fun . Instead I try to re-adjust or refocus my thoughts on other things to pre-occupy my mind. Saying that now is much easier than saying it before because it was hard to learn how to control my thoughts when anxiety rears its ugly head. Keeping the blog short today, I've got a headache from going into the city this morning. As always I will keep my progress logged on my blog. ...

Decided to write something about an experience I had this past Saturday. I had a pretty easy Friday at work, it was pretty quite. Friday night I spent at home relaxing, went out to grab some food with a few buddies around 10PM and came back home to hit the bed. Woke up around 9:30AM (Overslept a bit) and did my normal morning routine. Had to visit a client and install some software at around 11:30 so I prepped for that and left my house. Got to the clients location everything went smooth, finished up there around 12:15P and left as I had another job lined up and their location was closing at 1. I must have drove about 5 miles or so and came to a stoplight with light traffic and the light was red. As I'm listening to music and enjoying the scenery all of a sudden I start feeling "weird" and think to myself "this doesn't feel normal" but I realized what was going on. There it was anxiety popping its ugly head up again and I start thinking about what just h...

So I've finally began exercising, Its not much but its a start! We've got an exercise bike in our small home-gym area that my parents use mostly. So during my downtime or even if i'm feeling anxious I go sit on the bike and ride for exactly 15 minutes while reading a book/magazine. Today was my third day and I'm already challenging myself. Normally i ride at a steady pace and 15 minutes is enough for me to ride about 4.5 miles, the last 4 minutes I increase the resistance and the last minute i lower the resistance back down and just give it my all. The last two days I've been trying to beat my 4.5 time and today I finally did it, I came close to riding 5.5 Miles in 15 minutes and let me tell you that got my heart pumping, but in a good way! I felt great afterward and usually give myself a 3-5 minute warm-down. I read somewhere that some people feel anxious when they start to exercise since it gets their heart beating faster but that's normal. After i had my fi...