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Welcome back home! I had a wedding to attend a few weeks ago in Brazil and decided to take some time off for myself to see what another part of the world was like..

Let me first start off by saying that Brazil is an absolutely beautiful place. Despite high crime rates in the larger cities ( such as Rio De Janeiro or Sao Paulo), its simply amazing. The people are extremely friendly and warm which makes you feel right at home even if you don't speak Portuguese (which I don't). The lifestyle compared to here is much different in many aspects. To me Brazilian people are very laid back, friendly, and like to have a good time. They work but they don't stress themselves out about it and the job market is much like ours currently where jobs are hard to find.

During my stay there people just had a general sense of "well-being" and take life one day at a time attitude. I felt really comfortable there and could see myself living there with no problems. Another trip is definitely in store for the years to come.

I've been writing this post for about a week now so I've got a ton of catching up to do. I got back from brazil in the first week of December and jumped right back into work mode. Spent a few days up in Massachusetts for work which I enjoyed because I got a chance to do a little bit of sight-seeing and do something a little different for a change, I had no plans on staying overnight however work swamped me and I ended up staying longer than expected. Drove back home Thursday night, took a shower and went to sleep. That weekend was pretty quiet for me as I was still jet lagged from the flight earlier in the week. This week was pretty relaxing as well I didn't have a lot going on at work and my boss was out of town on business which makes office life that much easier.

Friday night i worked pretty late so I came home and went to bed since I had a ton of things to get done the next day. Saturday morning I take my car in for service and I came back home to clean out the garage and start preppy for my trip to Philadelphia for a meeting. Left for Philly sometime in the afternoon and got there around 6, had some time to kill so we decided to walk around a bit. Let me just say that I've never walked/shopped on South Street in Philly but it's a pretty nice scene. Lots of bars, clothing stores, sneaker stores, hat stores and stuff that you really can't find anywhere else, I was amazed that I've never heard about it before! I will be going back this weekend hopefully to pickup some items for myself. I hop back in my car and start heading to my meeting, mind you that I don't know where I am going so I use the GPS that's on my phone...yes while I am driving, its not safe but the traffic is barley moving. We cross an intersection at about 5mph as I am trying to figure out where the hell I am and I come to a complete stop behind a car in traffic. As I am looking at my phone someone comes and knocks on my passenger side window pretty hard, I look over and its a cop yelling at me to pull over. So I proceed to pull over and he comes over and starts yelling at me

Cop - Do you know why I Pulled you over?
Me - Because I was looking at my phone?
Cop - You can't be on your phone in Philly, the law is the same in New Jersey! (my plates are from NJ), that's a $300 ticket, license and registration!
Me - Alright.

10-15 minute interval for him to call his buddies and them chat for a little bit (heard some laughter) while he's writing my ticket.

Cop - Alright I gave you a break, this is just a $75 ticket instead but you can't use your phone and drive.
Me - I understand but I am lost and I'm using my GPS
Cop - Doesn't matter

 Long story short I got directions from him and proceeded on my way. Initially he was acting like an asshole but he wasn't such a bad guy. So I get to my meeting and things went well and my business partner and I got what we needed to get done, hopefully this venture works out. Got back home around midnight and went to bed.


And like that my first two weeks back from vacation were over. In another two weeks I'll be leaving here and re-locating myself out west, not sure if I'd mentioned the move in any of my earlier posts but I am moving out west in the greater phoenix az area. Just a chance for me to start fresh and really focus on what I want to do in my life and accomplish some of my own goals. I love where I live now but I feel that the majority of my friends all constantly do the same thing, I don't know what direction they are heading in but i know that its not the same as mine. Regardless they will be missed even if I have a hard time showing that. I hope to keep in touch with them and make it a habit to visit them when I am in the area.

So the million dollar question....how's my anxiety? Its still there but it's under control. In Brazil I had so much going on that I didn't have a bad day at all, of course there were times where i felt a little crappy but I kept pushing on and not letting it affect my time in such a beautiful place. On the plane ride home we had a lot of turbulence and the seats were really uncomfortable so that had me feeling crappy/scared/anxious but I just watched a movie and listened to music while falling in and out of sleep until we landed.

I hope by reading my blog posts you see that life goes on and you have to find things to keep your mind and body pre-occupied. I still have some days where I feel anxious and my guard is constantly up but I don't let that get in the way of my life..even if it sometimes find a way to put a dent in your whole day, you must find a way out and learn to control it.

Till next time.

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