Anxious Thoughts

Things have been getting better for the most part. Something that has been haunting me since this all started is "when is it going to end" and since my last blog post I've found that answer. Anxiety will be with me for the rest of my life and I am OK with that. How i deal with my anxiety ultimately will affect the outcome of the situation. There are good days and there are some days where I will have an anxious feeling from time to time. If I let that anxious feeling take control then things can take a turn for the worst and I can have a full-blown anxiety attack, which we all know is no fun . Instead I try to re-adjust or refocus my thoughts on other things to pre-occupy my mind. Saying that now is much easier than saying it before because it was hard to learn how to control my thoughts when anxiety rears its ugly head. Keeping the blog short today, I've got a headache from going into the city this morning. As always I will keep my progress logged on my blog. ...

Decided to write something about an experience I had this past Saturday. I had a pretty easy Friday at work, it was pretty quite. Friday night I spent at home relaxing, went out to grab some food with a few buddies around 10PM and came back home to hit the bed. Woke up around 9:30AM (Overslept a bit) and did my normal morning routine. Had to visit a client and install some software at around 11:30 so I prepped for that and left my house. Got to the clients location everything went smooth, finished up there around 12:15P and left as I had another job lined up and their location was closing at 1. I must have drove about 5 miles or so and came to a stoplight with light traffic and the light was red. As I'm listening to music and enjoying the scenery all of a sudden I start feeling "weird" and think to myself "this doesn't feel normal" but I realized what was going on. There it was anxiety popping its ugly head up again and I start thinking about what just h...

So I've finally began exercising, Its not much but its a start! We've got an exercise bike in our small home-gym area that my parents use mostly. So during my downtime or even if i'm feeling anxious I go sit on the bike and ride for exactly 15 minutes while reading a book/magazine. Today was my third day and I'm already challenging myself. Normally i ride at a steady pace and 15 minutes is enough for me to ride about 4.5 miles, the last 4 minutes I increase the resistance and the last minute i lower the resistance back down and just give it my all. The last two days I've been trying to beat my 4.5 time and today I finally did it, I came close to riding 5.5 Miles in 15 minutes and let me tell you that got my heart pumping, but in a good way! I felt great afterward and usually give myself a 3-5 minute warm-down. I read somewhere that some people feel anxious when they start to exercise since it gets their heart beating faster but that's normal. After i had my fi...

Came across these 7 Steps a few times today and decided that I'm going to post it. sixpack(moderator on anxietyzone) is the author  1. Therapy ---meds if you and your doctor feel it is appropriate---everybody is different on this issue.  Realize, too, that meds are not a CURE.  They are a help so some of the other tools can get a foothold. 2. self-help books --lots of good stuff out there these days ---Claire Weekes has good books out there that explain how it all works-- Hope and Help for Your Nerves   I read The Roadless Traveled by M. Scott Peck many years ago.  He speaks to people in a variety of ways.  He has a few other books too.  3.  Exercise ---even if you don't want to.  At first you are likely to feel miserable and panicky feelings are likely to bubble up OR rush at you.  It is BEASTY (your anxious overthinking) causing this.  But do it anyway. 4.  Eat a healthy diet .  This helps on all kinds ...

Not sure what was on my mind today but I had another small anxiety episode. Woke up this morning fine and took care of some errands. I returned home later in the afternoon and ate. As i hopped in front of the TV to watch a movie i felt a little "off" and well the rest was history. Thoughts obviously started to race through my mind and I felt anxious, why? I'm not sure. I felt as if I had to get up and go do something or go somewhere. But did i follow through with that thought? NOPE, I remained as calm as possible despite my mind racing and my stomach feeling like someone just punched me. I relaxed myself as best as possible and tried to take control of the situation. Eventually I ended up spending some time chatting with my Grandmother who has always been there for me regardless. And let me just say what a relief it is to talk about your anxiety , it was like instant relaxation. In the past I've talked about it and felt better but today It was great, I've been t...

Where have I Been? Here and there, my mind was in a fog/haze last week because I just had these weird/toxic thoughts running through my mind. But I've realized that they're just thoughts. Towards the end of last week I was swamped at working and ended up working late Friday and early Saturday morning. Sunday was a pretty relaxed day, spent most of my day at home bumming around the house (what I do best on Sunday, my day of rest). Monday I was off to an early start at work and spent the rest of the day in the office and ended up staying an extra hour to finish some stuff. Its been cold! Especially in my house, I don't know why but I guess winter is coming. I hate the cold in my house, it makes me want to stay covered up under a blanket. Today seems a little better, the sun is actually up and Its not raining. That's that, lets get to what I really wanted to post. Finding Yourself in Life Growing up I had all these hopes and dreams of many different things that I w...